My daughter has a monster... This monster.
The "2 headed monster says it's raining."
This sentence puts Lily in to a tizzy. Tears and fear take over her face faster than I can blink.
As adults, we giggle under our breathe; we think this fear is adorable b/c, 9 times our of 10, it's irrational.
As adults we also have fears... fears we face at times when we do not want to push said fears onto our children.
But what about the fears that our tiny ones just can't fathom?! The monsters that try to control us?
My monster isn't as cute as these purple Sesame Street friends... No! My monster is small but demands it's presence be known. It's dark, but will smile always, to fool you...a trickster. My monster is beautiful; you'd never expect it to be anything but pleasant. My monster is attacks me almost daily.
Today, I drug (dragged? drugged?)... Today I brought Lily all over God's creation because my monster took control.
Lily was so good today. I was about 1/8 present with her today, and she did a wonderful job of keeping herself busy - and sort of out of my way. She saw her mom walking around mostly like a Zombie. She saw me sad/frowning... Resting Bitch Face to the max! IDK what she was thinking, but she successfully helped make our day easy. Whether she meant to or not.
We all have monsters... some worse than others. They can take over our lives. The most resilient will brush it off; those of us less resilient, have a much ore difficult path.
But I have learned that this...
My monster may take over my day. The black cloud follows me and I find peace the negativity while "I'm in it."
HOWEVER!
I see the positive pockets of times I was blessed with. The moments when God said, "Not now Satan!"
My daughter and I still laughed today. We spent time together without electronics. We hit the park, lunch out, and the beach all in one day. I see the blessings and as I settle down for the evening, dream through the night, and prepare to rise tomorrow morning, I reflect on THAT!
The blessings.
It SUCKS when negative things take control... but LOOK FOR THE GOOD!
There is always something good in everyday.
ALWAYS!! <3
